I sit in the 5 AM artificial light and tap less than six keys at a time. Hesitation creeps into the void April has created after such vibes in March. I sit here, scrolling through photos, distractions, and precious minutes wasted.
We had a post-dinner dance party last night—I guess I’ll go there first. Tim sat at the table while I swung with Elena in my arms from side to side. I held her in a way that allowed us to face each other and play some Latin music. Slow at first, close together, singing the lyrics to her because dancing becomes its own force when I sing. Elena’s eyes wide open, giving me a gentle push if I dare stop for an instant. I’ll remember this random Monday evening for her through these words.
I’ve been wanting to write a post about Stop & Jot since I heard Lina (our socio-emotional consultant) being impressed with students reading and writing stickies in a grade 3 classroom. Twice, I’ve sat down, written a title, and seen myself close the laptop after failing at two incoherent sentences. Reflecting through writing is something harder than not. I know what I want to say, but the screen seems to be expecting meaning and clarity, and my ideas are too busy having their own dance party to deliver. I will try again later this week, and maybe Gianna can give me a hand.
Billy (my hairdresser) recommended this writing book a couple of years ago. I remember taking it to the beach with all my Post-its and eagerness to capture the great lines from the author, and I now don’t remember where it is. I often gift or lend books and forget who has them. On Saturday, I’ll lead a virtual session on writing for adults, and I could really use some quotes from that yellow book. While I wait for it to magically make its way back to me, I’ll try to make a plan for a group of moms to find meaning in writing something.
6:26 AM. The sun graces the clouds in front of me, slowly filling the dark spaces of my living room with better light. I turn the lamp off, and I will call it. I think I’ll go cuddle my sleepy baby, who is starting to roll around and be okay with this imperfect attempt at a Tuesday slice.
You tell us so much about yourself and your life by not telling us much 🙂 I think you will be glad you wrote today about your impromptu dance party with your little Elena. I loved the detail of how she gently pushes you for more when you seem to be stopping. Lovely image, worth remembering.
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This is a wonderful example of slice writing. It’s perfect in its imperfection.
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Showing up is the most important step! I’m so glad you’re here today. The last time I saw that book, it was during the June PD in 4th grade! Maybe it’s still there 🧐
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Ah, even your imperfect attempt is a joy to read. You have a way with words, and I loved envisioning you and Elena swinging along to the Latin music. I hope someday you will get your book with the post-it note quotes back. I’m glad you posted it today!
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